It's a new year. Finally.
I think a new year has more significance for me than others because my birthday is on January 3rd. That way, it's like turning over a new leaf in more ways than one. I don't bother doing new year's resolutions (never finished War and Peace from last year), but rather I have high expectations as to what I want to happen. I'm turning 32 and that is my favorite number. I want to do different things and travel to places I've never been this year. And most importantly I am planning on finishing my book. Ah yes, the elusive book that I swear I've been working on for ages. But seriously, I want to get it done. Bound and sent off to publishers that won't even bother reading it, and then sending me a rejection letter that will surely make me cry. So looking forward to that.
Recently when I was in Florida (Disneyworld of course, I wouldn't just vacation in Florida. Ew.) I stopped by the Japan pavilion in Epcot and learned about the Damura. You see, the Damura is this Weeble like thing based on a priest who prayed for nine years straight in a cave and so he lost his arms and legs (uplifting I know, please stay with me here). He is the symbol of all things optimistic. So he's got this Weeble like shape (Weebles wobble but they won't fall down!) and white circles for eyes. Creeeeepy! The whole point is that you are supposed to color in one eye with a pupil and make a wish. And then when that wish comes true, you color in the other eye. When it does. Or if I suppose. And then once the wish comes true you can either burn it and get another one or I guess just let that one collect dust on your bookcase.
Last night I colored in my eye with a Sharpie and made a wish. I prefaced it by saying that the words I speak can never do the wish in my heart justice, so start there Mr. Damura. But I tried my hardest to wish for something that I've always wanted. And while I wanted to wish for my book getting published. I didn't. And call me old fashioned but I fear that if I tell you what I wished for, it would not come true. Well I have 365 days of anticipation ahead of me. I'll certainly let you know if it actually comes true.
So a new year, another birthday, a new wish...and hopefully a new book and a new job and maybe a new boyfriend this year... maybe it's all waiting for me. Or maybe Polio is waiting for me. Who knows? The point is to wake up everyday and be hopeful and optimistic. Sometimes that's hard for me, but I'm going to try. Keep your fingers crossed would ya?
Happy New Year everyone!
Happy New Year! I'm still insisting on my autographed copy of your book. First edition, of course :)
Posted by: Clay Aiken | January 02, 2008 at 07:09 AM